new music and tootsie pops

I am updating to do from my glass and steel desk. I am wearing my Gumby boxers and my boys flannel hoodie from rue 21. After a very tossy-turny sleep last night I am left with this feeling of unproductiveness. Like the feeling that today I will do just enough to get me by and do the things I simply must do, i.e. the list that my mother undoubtedly left for me downstairs, remaking my bed and my homework for Wednesday. I have so much more to say but I don't think I am ready to make any of this completely public yet, I am still processing.

Current nail polish: Courtney orange by sinful colors

Come on use your big girl voice.

I am sitting in my 8 a.m. history class, with what I like to call Worlds Quietest Monotone Professor or W.Q.M.P for short. This is the type of class where as long as you do the reading you really don't need to go to the class. But in order for me too turn my new leaf I am not allowing myself to miss a single class all semester baring being deathly ill or family crisis. After I go home and shower I am going to start working on my latest video project. I have already done a rough run of it on paper. But single spaced hand written it was 2.5 pages long. I talk fast and all but I am trying to stick to some rules for myself. For example: My video will not exceed four minutes. Yes, its a nerdfighter rule but I agree with it, whenever a video is longer than four minutes I have to push myself to actually spend time watching it. Another rule is that I will not participate in the ritual of cramming 10,000 jump cuts into a video, I mean it works for most people but I would much rather have one smooth take. I mean if I need to edit mistakes out that's one thing. Or if I choose to do a video where the two sides of my brain talk to each other, this would be another exception to the rule. I would to like to participate in V.E.D.A this year, and actually make it all the way through. This also means that I would have my Mac by then too. I actually really hope to have it by the end of February or at least to have bought it by then.
I join weight watchers next week, I am nervous but I also know this is the best thing I could possibly do for myself right now. I need to take care of this growing weight problem..ha ha Do you see the pun I made there...wow I am so funny. I will post my video up here when I finish it. I plan on putting it on Facebook, Youtube, Livejoural and blogspot. Ahh this is exposing myself to everyone. It's scary but I have a feeling it will be worth it.

Happy 2010 self. let's make it better...mk?