the sun, my insparation has come to my presents again

when i was little i would beg my mother to take me to the library every week so i may have grabbed a bag full of books and sat outside in my favorite tree and read for hours. but now a hobby i once enjoyed so much has now been reduced to torcher because all i do is read for school. i want to read my kind of books not the kind of books that lack plot or passion. okay maybe i tend to gravitate to the young adult books but at least those are entertaining and yes they are easy to read. but who wants a book that you have a mental break down trying to figure out what the author is saying.

apparently, i am now an overachiever when it comes to youtube. i have scripted 3 out of 7 videos i have come up with in the last day and half. 5 out of that 7 is a multiple part project, one is my w.w. video and the other is going to be a video called five guilty pleasures. ugh so much to do and film. but i will prevail oh and not to forget school. that ends this month. so glad!

so i am doing something completely different. i should be thrilled i think i am but, its the finding how other take it that i am worried for. but as i have stated before this year is all about shaking stuff up and doing what i really want, but this is the weird part. i have no idea. its kinda of amazingly refreshing to think that my future as of right now is a big white open space. to be filled by my choices. much like this box was before i began to type in helavetica. i just have to make it until april 27th then i am offically done with this place. i think the only thing i will miss is this computer desk and this computer desk...yeah thats all i will miss. the gym was nice though. im just so happy with this choice

hello there sunshine

So, to be completely honest with myself and I guess whoever else reads this. I am reinventing who I am.
I am purging the sloth and skank from my life. I am doing more, experiencing new things, reaching out, and finding new people outside of my little bubble to spend time with. I want more from my life and as corny as it sounds, life is insanely short and a very rough ride at times. I truly think it took me to hit what I call my bottom of the barrel for me to finally go out and do what I want and pursue who I think I should be. opinions of others who don't really know me be damned. I know I have more to offer to the world than an imprint on a chair. I am going to be something truly incredible. And I am going to seize ever opportunity that doesn't sound inherently dangerous and life threatening. I am going to dance, party, and work hard.
New life motos:
Remember the concept of less is more
Classy-sexy not skanky sexy
Work hard-Play hard