How did I manage that?

The question on my mind and finger tips today is: How did I manage that? If I were to look back to a week ago, I was having a massive panic attack. Freaked out about how far behind I am. Or was really, I have caught up some. I still have so much work to do on math its not funny. everyone around me seems to be understanding it and I seem to be, lazy. When I leave math I feel completely ready to do the assignment. Problem with that is she doesn't post it up until 4 pm. So while time goes by I become less enthusiastic as I begin to do other things like read for my English class. We read an article called, "Writing Blind" by Margaret Atwood. And we had to pull one or two quotes that stuck out to us while reading. I ended up pulling I think four.

I just could not choose only one. Here are the ones I picked:

• "The word should is a dangerous one to use when speaking of writing. It's a kind of challenge to the deviousness and inventiveness and audacity and perversity of the creative spirit."
• "Those little black marks on the page mean nothing without their re-translation's into sound. Even when reading silently, we read with the ear, unless we are reading bank statements."
• "They will not put up with your lassitude or boredom: If you want their full attention, you must give them yours."
• "From listening to the stories of others, we learn to tell our own."

Many of those quotes couple well with my own personal thoughts on reading and more likely writing. These thoughts of hers are almost an exact translation of how I have felt for a while. Its like she was eavesdropping on my inner monologue. And then we have John Ciardi, he is an English teacher. We were to read an excerpt from a speech he gave at an English conference.

The quote I picked from his little thingy was, "And yet, though it seems paradoxical, creativity cannot spring from the untaught". This made me think really hard about everything I had began to believe. Is the only reason I am creative that I have been taught how to be creative? I guess I can agree that without being taught about what has been written or done that I would have ended up copying or repeating an idea. But I would really like to think that was born with this creative potential inside me. Unless he means that without being taught we could not adequately voice, or show our creativity. I don't know but I would love to hear the opinions of others. I think I may make a video response to 5AG and pose this question. I think they might like it. Who knows maybe they will actually respond.

NaNoWriMo is approaching soon. And I am so excited for the idea of it, however the actual feasibility of it seems impossible. What with school and everything. I think I might reach out to my newest mentor, one of my English professors and ask her opinion. Or even just fill her in on it if she hasn't heard of it already. I think that I feel as if I can do this whole 150 pages in 30 some-odd days thing, that I would have the confidence to try harder and make more of myself.

Ta-ta my dearest bloggy blog.