As I sit in the place that I am in, (trying to be vague is not one of my strengths) I am searching my soul for the motivation to start on the pile of homework I have let stack up. And no where within my soul or mind can I find the motivation I need. I am so unmotivated on the topics of my classes. I have no drive to write on these topics. Nor do I care deeply for what my professor is trying to convince me is "modern" lit. She sees modern as something that happened within the span of the past 100 years. Where as I see it as something that came out within the last year. The types of books I am drawn to study and love is current. It is astounding how many new books have come out just within the span of a year. And most of them go relatively unnoticed. Unless they are highly controversial. It is within me to wager that without the influence of youtube I would have never ventured to find John Green and his amazing writing. (seriously guys check him out). Soon NaNoWriMo will be upon us. What is NaNoWriMo you might be asking. Well it stands for National Novel Writing Month. Where during all of November writers of all ages and abilities set out to write a 175 page or 50,000 word novel. In a month. As NaNoWriMo gets closer I am toying with the idea of trying it. I know that most people will tell me a few different things, such as: Jenny you have never written anything longer than 12 pages and that was for a class. The longest story you have written is four pages maybe. And finally possibly the most rational of these, what about school. you have fallen behind as it is.
And to those inquiries I reply, I know. The thing is for my NaNoWriMo project I think I will make it my own project. Over the years I have kept several no so consistent journals. It has always been an idea of mine to combine as much as I can and turn it into a fairly coherent auto biography narrative by myself. With a few side notes to explain more. But then again, this is just an idea I haven't even nearly begun to map anything out. And I think it is safe to say that I need to get all caught up on school work before I even consider doing this. I think I am taking a pretty mature approach to this. It has always been a dream of mine to write a book, novel, children's book. I do not want to only be a writer as a job. I want to teach, however the soul can want more than one thing.
I joined Skype finally. I have no idea what the hell I am doing with it. But like everything else I will work with trial and error. I wish more of my friends actually used it but for right now I have my hands full trying to get David to join.
This past Wednesday I got my blood work back from the doctor. My sugar levels were higher than they expected. Of course they want me to go back and take another test this time fasting before they take the blood. I went onto webmd just to try and find out what high blood sugar could mean. Well the number one answer I found was Diabities. Most likely type 2. Now I only have like 2 out of the 8 symptoms. Which I guess is semi comforting. However, this feeling of overwhemling doom is hard to shake off. Evan feels that I am being to sensitive. I don't know if that is completly true. But I guess its true that I had a large breakfast before that appointment because I didn't know they needed blood work. I have not felt like myself completely since I had ecoli. I guess only time will tell as to if I will get better or not. There is probably nothing wrong with me but that I am over weight and really could stand to lose some. Bleh. Well, I will cross that bridge when I reach it I guess.
Good day dearest bloggy, Now that I have updated you I feel that I can now push myself to do my homework!
Jennifer.
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